Everybody was trapped. We couldn't do anything. I just kept trying to get out, but...
[She buries her face in her hands.]
I don't want to live my life like I'm in a prison. Like...like my life is on hold. I've been in this limbo ever since...
[Raking back her hair, Korra lifts her head and swallows hard.]
My girlfriend was here. Kaede was hers. We'd just gotten together, back home. And we were here before...but then I went home and came back and didn't remember anything. And so we started over. But like two months later...she went home. And then she came back again, but she didn't remember so we started over again, and then she was gone in another two months.
[She's never just laid it all out there like that. But she's been stuck since losing Asami again, like she's just going through the motions waiting for her to come back. And terrified she never will.]
[She'd been alone in that house in the nightmare, after all.]
[Cissnei had suspected that something had happened, that Korra had lost someone very close to her and there had been clues. Kaede had a different trainer's name registered to her, after all.
But hearing it all laid out like this made her heart ache for the other young woman.
She couldn't imagine going through that once let alone twice. And here Korra was, still pushing through; still moving forward despite everything she had been through.]
...I can't imagine...Korra, I'm....I'm so sorry.
[It comes out in a whisper, Cissnei's feet sliding in the sand as she loosens the grip she has on them with her arms, reaching out to rest a hand on Korra's shoulder instead.]
This place hasn't exactly been full of happiness for you...I wish you hadn't gone through that.
I was so happy when she came back. It was like...everything would be fine, here, because we were together. We could have a big adventure here, and we'd be together and even if we wouldn't remember when we went home...
And I think about that a lot. I won't remember this. It's a vacation from life. A vacation that doesn't end, but I'm not missing anything back home. I've just been stuck for a long time.
[She glances at Cissnei, shaking her head in frustration. The nightmare experience had brought it all so clearly into focus for her. She leans a little into the other woman's hand, all full of stirred emotions.]
She's been gone way longer than we were ever together.
I have to admit, a part of me still wonders if time really does stop back home. Sometimes I feel like everything is just continuing without me and..and that no one even notices I'm not there.
[Because living in the shadows, so to speak, was how she had done things. How the Turks had always done things.
Would they even realize she was missing?]
Still...having her come and go like that couldn't have been easy. Even if you were only officially together for a few days before she left, pain is still pain.
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[She buries her face in her hands.]
I don't want to live my life like I'm in a prison. Like...like my life is on hold. I've been in this limbo ever since...
[Raking back her hair, Korra lifts her head and swallows hard.]
My girlfriend was here. Kaede was hers. We'd just gotten together, back home. And we were here before...but then I went home and came back and didn't remember anything. And so we started over. But like two months later...she went home. And then she came back again, but she didn't remember so we started over again, and then she was gone in another two months.
[She's never just laid it all out there like that. But she's been stuck since losing Asami again, like she's just going through the motions waiting for her to come back. And terrified she never will.]
[She'd been alone in that house in the nightmare, after all.]
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But hearing it all laid out like this made her heart ache for the other young woman.
She couldn't imagine going through that once let alone twice. And here Korra was, still pushing through; still moving forward despite everything she had been through.]
...I can't imagine...Korra, I'm....I'm so sorry.
[It comes out in a whisper, Cissnei's feet sliding in the sand as she loosens the grip she has on them with her arms, reaching out to rest a hand on Korra's shoulder instead.]
This place hasn't exactly been full of happiness for you...I wish you hadn't gone through that.
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And I think about that a lot. I won't remember this. It's a vacation from life. A vacation that doesn't end, but I'm not missing anything back home. I've just been stuck for a long time.
[She glances at Cissnei, shaking her head in frustration. The nightmare experience had brought it all so clearly into focus for her. She leans a little into the other woman's hand, all full of stirred emotions.]
She's been gone way longer than we were ever together.
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[Because living in the shadows, so to speak, was how she had done things. How the Turks had always done things.
Would they even realize she was missing?]
Still...having her come and go like that couldn't have been easy. Even if you were only officially together for a few days before she left, pain is still pain.